FREE TO LIVE

Realizing I was a hoarder was both a shock and a relief. A shock, because nobody wants to have a mental disorder. A relief, because my situation finally had a name. I found people who could relate. Knowing the problem helps solving it. I can step aside and look at the situation from a more neutral point of view. Why am I blogging about it? 2 reasons. 1. Putting my thoughts into words helps me think more clearly. 2. If this helps just one, who is like me, see the light it was more than worth it!

2017-06-19

THE ATTIC BATTLE

My knight in shining armor has hacked away at the armies of my arch nemesis the attic. He has re-stacked, sorted, thrown out and organized. He has managed to organize the attic so that only about a third of the floor space is still covered. It feels so much more manageable. Today we got 2 more big furniture items out and off to a new home and I tossed a few things in passing. MY main question for myself was:"Why do I still have this?" It felt great to just let got!

2017-06-15

1 MILLION PROJECTS

Summer is here and with it 500.000 projects. The attic plans are moving along bringing another 500.000 projects with them.

It is hard for me to stay focused.
It is hard for me to finish projects.
It is hard for me to start projects.
It is hard for me to know what is important.

I feel like I am behind on everything. I feel like I am simply not the right person for this. Unfortunately I am the person in charge.

I wish I could say I am giving my best. It feels like I am only giving the bare minimum. The rest ist spent sitting and staring.

I will go plant the tomatoes now. It might just be one tiny project, but it is one project less on my endless project list.