"DO AS YOU PLEASE" DAY

I declared today "do as you please day". Who cares what needs to be done. Stuff ALWAYS has to be done. And as you know by now, "do as you please" with me doesn't necessarily mean I am not working on things. It just means I am not sticking with the plan. Today for example I decided to cut back the bushes in front of the house. The weather is sunny and warm, I will just take the baby outside with me and enjoy the last few rays of sunshine. Who knows if I will see the sun again until March. Those bushes are so far down on the to do list, that if I stick with my list they will never get done. Their priority listing just isn't high enough to ever make it to the top. Something is always more pressing. As they stay on the list none the less they still weigh down on me. So getting them off might be better than to stick with the list.

DISCOURAGED

I am not sure if the headline really gets across how I am feeling about this at the moment. I tried to get the kids to earn ice cream but they whined and lamented about 7 min blocks of cleanup being too long and that 5 would be all they can handle. I did what every evil mom would do. I got some work out of them and then decided that if any of them really want to go, they need to show some initiative. None of them did.

James is suffering severely from allergies and the week was just simply too much for both of us. We both crashed more than once and it feels like one of us was always napping. James made the kids work some more so they all have a little more than half an hour under their belt but no reward. Ella seemed to be the only one genuinely sad about it. I think I will support her in earning it a little more next week as she wasn't complaining.

I felt like crying tonight but gritted my teeth. Now that the day is up I will be honest. We got a lot more done then I thought at first. We even finally got my zucchini, tomato and  pepper plants planted. The cucumber doesn't look like it will make it, but we will see.

I have laundry to keep me busy for the rest of the night. It is such a struggle to keep going at the moment and it has been for weeks, but I refuse to give up. I am not sure what I am doing wrong. Maybe I just need to take a step back and find out how to be more efficient. Maybe things just have to stop going wrong. Leaking dishwasher, emergency pick ups and stuff like that really doesn't help. Tomorrow is Sunday. I'll take it easy.

SUNDAY NIGHT

Time to get a grip on life. Again. This week was full and it feels like it went on for EVER! I am very ready for a break, but it will be a while until I really get one. I am still working hard on a daily basis. I made progress. In the house and around the house. My tomatoes are planted, as are the peppers, and the beans, the pumpkin is growing nicely, as are the strawberries. The lettuce will hopefully survive the snails attempts to destroy it. The raspberries look nice and the blackberries were granted one last season. And I will DEFINITELY try growing watermelons this year.

Oh. Hoarding. In the house. Who cares. I have a life. And I will enjoy it.