TIME LAPSE

My life feels like I am watching a time lapse movie. Anytime I blink a day is up. I have been crazy busy, rather successful with most things unless you consider household chores and decluttering goals, oops, but I have kept all appointments, had fun with the kids doing things they like and in general am doing better getting the things done that I feel are important. 

Thanks to the cleaning fairy the house is slightly improving. I am stubborn  enough to nto do a single thing she can do at the moment as I think it is key to really keep her busy the 3.5 hours she is here every week and for me to make progress sin other areas. I still need to work on getting enough sleep.

Over all I think things are going so much better than just a few weeks ago. I have also learned to be a little nicer to myself. To acknowledge the things I do and worry less about what is left to do.  

I had a few attempts at blogging but never finished my posts. I do hope to still get them to you in the near future!

Life might not be perfect, but it's good none the less!

EMOTIONAL CLUTTER

It's time to let it go. Some things will never be solved. Turning them over and over in your head analyzing and reanalyzing is nothing but churning. And churning, as we know, gets us no where. It might be too big to let it all go at once, but just like with things you can touch, even letting go of a small thing, is letting go of something thus making more space. Letting go takes practice. They say that ever journey starts with the first step. If we don't take that one tine step because is will not significantly lessen the distance to our destination we will never get there. 

So think of one thing that is emotional garbage, In your mind, dump it into the garbage can, burn it, tie it to a bunch of balloons and let it go. What ever works. Just let it go.

COMPETING AGAINST MYSELF

I read over old posts today. Correcting a spelling mistake here, changing the font to bold, little things like that. And of course reading over things makes me see how far I got in the last 10 months. I cam across this post:


BE NICE
Especially to yourself. I don't know about you, but I am my harshest critic. It is hard to be a better person if, no matter what you do, it's never enough. Calling yourself to stupid/lazy/unorganized to EVER get a grip on life will not help. And even though I know that, I do it again and again. Especially when I am not feeling good about myself and what I achieved. On days like this, it does help me to at the end of the day list my accomplishments And I will list everything. EVERYTHING. And then I remind myself I can do even better tomorrow!

Let's face it. By telling myself  I can do even better tomorrow, I somehow imply that all the achievements of the day weren't enough. Because if they had been enough, there would be no need to improve the next day. Competing against others all the time is hard enough. But competing against yourself is even worse. If you can't beat yourself, you obviously didn't work hard  enough, and when you do beat yourself you could have obviously done better last time. 

Goal for the next 3 months. Enjoy a day as is and celebrate the days achievements without looking back!

ROLLERCOASTER DAY

I had one of those dreaded rollercoaster days. I was tired getting up. Very tired. But I worked anyway. I felt a lot better all of a sudden. Then things went down hill. But I got my spirits back up. Followed by an incident with a little meltdown. I ended the day going up. Everything done that needed to be done. Oh wait. HELP! NO! Okay. Everything done that needed to be done except for one thing. A million things left to do. But who cares. I can do them tomorrow. I see the progress. It might be small. But progress it is, and as long as I don't let. Now I will go and finish those invitations so they can be handed out tomorrow!

CHORE BUFFET

You know those all you can eat buffets? Where you can start with dessert? Eat all the meat and skip the vegetables? Or have 5 different soups with 7 different kinds of bread? You only take what you want and leave the rest.

That's kind of what I did today. I wasn't in the mood for a 3 course meal of cleaning. I decided I didn't care what was important. I didn't care about the big or little jobs. I decided I would only do what I felt up to. SO. Laundry. Lots of laundry. Even more laundry. Dirty laundry, clean laundry. Sorting, washing, drying, folding, storing. Ironing. IRONING! Bleah.

I cleaned a bathroom, cleared a coat rack, washed it down and got rid of half of the coats. Nobody wears them anyway. I cleaned the kitchen. I cooked. AndI made the kids clean up. Hehehe.

It wasn't an organized approach, at the moment I wish I had invested all that time into the front room. But lets face it. I got a lot done today. If I had forced myself to work methodicaly I think I would have given up pretty soon.

I think I'll have those "all you can handle chore buffets" more often!

HAPPY 2014

I started things slowly this year. But I started. I threw out a few little items that I never had the heart to let go. It was easier then expected. I remind myself to focus on the progress instead of the things left to do. The house looks better tonight than it did last night. At the moment that is good enough for me.